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Retreat 6-7 Mac 2010

2010-03-13T00:14:00.006+08:00

Went to a church retreat cum teacher training last weekend at Rembia. Its mainly for Sunday school teachers and as the name suggests…supposed to be a time of reflection…having some private and personal with God..but since we so seldom see each other and share our thoughts on teaching…it soon became more like a socializing and sharing forum…haha..but anyhow..it was a good experience as the teachers ourselves are of a great mix of people..the youngest being 17 years old while the eldest maybe in his 50s..the site was very nice considering we just have to pay rm10 for 2 days 1 night…and all meals were included…and the food is super nice..the best ever in a camp! And I have joined at least 20 camps before..we were fortunate to have Fr Paul with us…who is a quite open-minded and bright young priest with sporting character and good sense of humour. I had learnt quite a bit and it was overall a good day out A summary of what I learnt:
Lies: When too often we lie with good intentions…sooner or later it will be abused.
Temper: It’s human nature but minimize on committing sins with it
Relationships (Any kind): To persevere, we have to sacrifice time & effort, even though it is a one-way traffic
All things: To be moderate, contented, to give freely, not to be too judgmental
Good or Bad: Depends on intention
Challenges: The cross is tailor made for each one of us, if its for us..it will somehow be bearable
Most powerful instrument: Prayers and bible
But someone who does not know, and then does something wrong, will be punished only lightly. When someone has been given much, much will be required in return; and when someone has been entrusted with much, even more will be required. (Luke 12:48)--that includes money, talents, positions, powers, health etc...

Road safety

2010-03-13T00:14:00.001+08:00

Has been spending quite a lot of time in my car lately..since I have to travel 19km one way every day to work..that’s about 40min at least at a speed of 60 to 90km/hr….i have seen a number of road accidents too…some involved deaths…how often do we check my car…how often do we drive dangerously……how often do we sped….maybe we should be more careful next time

Art of communication

2010-03-13T00:13:00.003+08:00

In today’s world, where communication is so convenient, to communicate, we often use phone calls, sms, msn, blog, facebook or email. Basically we communicate without seeing each other face to face. It’s true that people at the receiving end might perceive the message conveyed wrongly since despite knowing the content of the conversation…the tone or facial expression is lost in translation. But if we look into it closely..they are not entirely lost. In a telephone conversation…we can actually notice the speaker’s expression..whether they are impatient, happy, excited, bored etc. In written messages…we can sense that when we look at the use of punctuation, eg !, ?!, :) , :(, CAPITAL LETTERS etc…whether the message is a short one, long one, the use of words…all these hinted on the tone on which the message were to be conveyed. Whether we like it or not…these sort of non-face-to-face communications are here to stay…it’s our way of life in fact and makes our life so much easier, time saving and let us manage our time better, at the same time help us connected with others. It’s up to us to try our best to ensure the message conveyed correctly..by paying extra attention when writing them..or when conveying them verbally. It’s after all an art that needs to be practised always..hopefully to perfection.

To live

2010-03-13T00:13:00.002+08:00

Ever thought of the purpose of life? Ever thought that there might be a greater purpose to our living than ourselves? In short…besides staying alive to fulfil whatever of our own agendas…There is a greater cause …ie to live for someone else…We are here for a purpose…it would be very selfish to think of just ourselves…we are here for others as well…eg a mother is here for her children and husband…a cleaner is to keep places tidy for others to stay healthy and work in sickness-free environment..so when we feel down and felt that the world won’t even notice us if we’re gone or if we are not getting the things we desired from the world…do remember that maybe we are created to serve others…and not to be served. And this might be the purpose of life.

Pursue the Virtue of Contentment

2010-01-24T14:18:00.003+08:00

Got the following from a yet tyng. thanks yet! actually its not an easy life these days..to have a job that we like doing is not easy..most of the time we do it not because we like it..its bcos we have to feed ourselves or others..but when we have the choice...or when making choices for ourselves or our children...money vs passion have to go into consideration...its a tough call...anyway...i guess the most important thing is to execute our daily job with great passion...we have to try to see the significance of whatever we are doing...eg a toilet cleaner cleans so that to minimise infection of diseases to toilet users, so that whoever that goes to toilet won faint, and whoever leaves the toilet don smell, and gives everyone a good feeling after leaving the toilet etc....then we will be able to accomplish great things:) and ya...bout contentment...im always so not content...sometimes the dreams can blind us from appreciating the things that we have..always pursuing for the things that we don have..ya, its a balance...i guess by the end of the day...we can be sad for the things we failed to achieve..but at the same time we have to be happy for the things we did achieve and possess:)

Pursue the Virtue of Contentment
by Max Lucado

A businessman bought popcorn from an old street vendor each day after lunch. He once arrived to find the peddler closing up his stand at noon. “Is something wrong?” he asked.
A smile wrinkled the seller’s leathery face. “By no means. All is well.”
“Then why are you closing your popcorn stand?”
“So I can go to my house, sit on my porch, and sip tea with my wife.”
The man of commerce objected. “But the day is still young. You can still sell.”
“No need to,” the stand owner replied. “I’ve made enough money for today.”
“Enough? Absurd. You should keep working.”
The spry old man stopped and stared at his well-dressed visitor. “And why should I keep working?”
“To sell more popcorn.”
“And why sell more popcorn?”
“Because the more popcorn you sell, the more money you make. The more money you make, the richer you are. The richer you are, the more popcorn stands you can buy. The more popcorn stands you buy, the more peddlers sell your product, and the richer you become. And when you have enough, you can stop working, sell your popcorn stands, stay home, and sit on the porch with your wife and drink tea.”
The popcorn man smiled. “I can do that today. I guess I have enough.”
Wise was the one who wrote, “Whoever loves money never has money enough; whoever loves wealth is never satisfied with his income” (Eccles. 5:10 NIV).
Don’t heed greed.
Greed makes a poor job counselor.
Greed has a growling stomach. Feed it, and you risk more than budget-busting debt. You risk losing purpose. Greed can seduce you out of your sweet spot.
Before you change your job title, examine your perspective toward life. Success is not defined by position or pay scale but by this: doing the most what you do the best.
Parents, give that counsel to your kids. Tell them to do what they love to do so well that someone pays them to do it.
Spouses, urge your mate to choose satisfaction over salary. Better to be married to a happy person who has a thin wallet than a miserable person with a thick one. Besides, “a pretentious, showy life is an empty life; a plain and simple life is a full life” (Prov. 13:7 MSG).
Pursue the virtue of contentment. “Godliness with contentment is great gain” (1 Tim. 6:6 NIV). When choosing or changing jobs, be careful. Consult your design. Consult your Designer. But never consult your greed.

From Cure for the Common Life
Copyright (Thomas Nelson, 2006) Max Lucado

A professional mistake

2009-12-02T23:35:00.001+08:00

A professional mistake

Got this from a fren... (thanks pao2 :P)
How much does this apply to u???? kinda scary when u imagine urself in it!

Your alarm rings, signalling another brand new day.
You get up, looking forward for another new day of challenge, another new day to learn.
After washing up, you put on your office outfit, giving you that professional look, one that you believe many out there envy.
Breakfast follows (perhaps), and you head off to your office. You're one of the earliest to arrive, ahead of all your superior and when they come in later, they greet you and you feel all charged up for another productive day.
Plenty to do and learn and hence, you are prepared to stay back late to do all that is necessary.

If you're currently doing a degree in finance, accounting or law, the above is probably what you've been waiting for all these years.
You work your ass off (well... most of you) in university because it's your dream to join one of those big glamorous firms out there in the market.

Lawyers and accountants are the usual suspects for this curse. Once graduated, all of them will run like headless chicken towards those big firms.
If you're an accounting student... you want to be an auditor in one of the Big-4 right?

Well, if you do make it, it's like a dream come true.
In such firms, you get a personal computer, maybe a notebook (wow!). All your stationeries are free, and it's also the first time you step into a 'pantry', where you can make your own coffee, just like those nice offices in TVB series.
Next, you get an exclusive e-mail, the domain after your name is not the ordinary @ gmail.com or @hotmail.com or @ yahoo.com ... No, it's
not, it's your-name@a-big-and-glamorous-firm.com

You can't wait to tell that to your friend.

Then comes the feeling of giving a business card with your name on it,and it's not any other business card, it's one with your name on it,
it's one that signifies you're an employee with
a-big-and-glamorous-firm. And... the word below your name is not a lowly
"accounts executive"... the word below your name is exclusive... the
word below your name is... "Associate". And when your friend gives you
the "Wow, you're an associate with this firm?"... you get into instant
orgasm.

3 or 6 months into your job, you will then be experiencing the euphoria
of saying... I-am-very-busy... I-have-a-lot-work...
I-worked-till-very-late-last-night...
I-can't-make-it-for-the-gathering-cos-I-have-to-work-this-weekend. Yeah,
it's an euphoria because to you, it's a privilege to be busy, it's very
cool to work late, you're very proud to work in during weekends. When
you utter such words, a sense of arrogance and pride radiates from you.

You feel great because working so hard means you learnt a lot of things,
those not in the professional industry somehow looks lowly to you. You
feel big, you feel you're a level smarter than them .Reality will tend
to sink in within 2 years or so, though the duration seems to be getting
shorter and shorter now with the younger generation.

First, you will probably ask yourself, how come a graduate like you must
do all sorts of donkey jobs such as photocopying, checking invoices,
going through pile and pile of documents and filing. You will also be
wondering how come your superior whom you once looked up to have to suck
up to clients. Oh yeah... most all clients are unreasonable.

If you're an accountant, you will probably realise that there is no such
thing called a 'balance' sheet. It's balanced because you did the
balancing act so that your big boss can sign on it and certify it as
'true and fair'.

Yeah... signing on accounts, the job that you once dreamed of... isn't
exactly all a bed of roses. You then realise that you will probably
never reach that "just-need-to-sign-only stage" but hey... it's ok, you
probably hate that job by now. When you tell your client something,
chances are you are just as blur and confuse as them. But you have to
act as though you're an expert because you're the con-sul-tant. This is
just a glimpse of it.

Now, all the late nights and irregular meals will probably caused you to
age 8 years in 2 years. Those I-am-very-busy... I-have-a-lot-work...
I-worked-till-very-late-last-night...
I-can't-make-it-for-the-gathering-cos-I-have-to-work-this-weekend will
take its toll on your body and it will show. You will probably look very
skinny... or very far... you will certainly look old and worn out.
Working late and spending weekends in the office is no longer a cool
thing but absolute stupidity. But hey... you will still have to do it,
because there's still much work to be done.

By now, all your friends who ended up as salesmen or doing other thing
except being a professional, those whom you felt superior to are driving
anything but a proton. But for you, it's time to think whether you
should buy a proton cause your perodua is beginning to give you problem.
Of course, if your father is well-connected fella, things can be
different.

But if you're not, tough luck. You'll be wondering how come you're
generally under-paid. Those exposure and learning curve that you once
craved are no longer relevant. You want to make more money. But unless
you're a partner of the glamorous firm, money can be a lil tough to come
by.

At this point of time, probably after 3, 4 or 5 years, you finally
realised that document you signed when you first joined the glamorous
firm was nothing but lies. Then, you decide to ply your trade in the
commercial world, you leave those glamorous firm. You think joining a
commercial firm will bring about a good change, not knowing that such
move means you switched from being a 'profit centre' to a 'cost centre'.

One of the main effect of the switch is that you will be working doubly
hard compared to the profit centre, which probably includes a lot of
late nights too... but your salary and bonus is much lower compared to
profit centre. What does this mean... a story for another time.

One thing for sure... your morning will now be something like...
Your alarm rings, signalling another day... another weekday. You get up,
after snoozing the alarm a million and one times. You hope today is
Friday, but it's not, and you feel like shit. You think of a million and
one reasons to take MC, but you realised you have to go to office
because you failed to finish the report due today though you stayed till
10pm last night. You tell yourself you need to change job, just like how
you have been telling yourself in the last 1 year. Once in office,
you're in a dilemma cause you want time to go slower so that you can
finish your work but yet, you want time to go faster so that you can
leave the office and go for lunch.

During lunch, you will b**** with your colleagues about work and
probably the bosses. You will all talk about so many people who seem to
be doing so well except for you. You realised you should have done
something else while in university. You realised you may have made a
mistake in life... a mistake in being a professional... you have made...
a professional mistake.

I'm Back!!!

2009-11-24T00:03:00.005+08:00

Back with a camera i mean....sold off my canon 1000d and now having nikon d3000. jus had it for a month but haven been using it much except for a recent singapore trip. but i think i can sort of write a review on it.. basically d3000 is the cheapest entry level dslr for nikon while 1000d for canon. both are almost the same price.

d3000 lacks the live view feature that canon has (basically that feature allows u to take a shot jus looking at the big lcd screen of camera and not through the small hole)..d3000 is also not as user-friendly as canon cos you have to go into menu to change some settings like ISO, White Balance etc. the good thing about nikon is its lower range lens are somehow sharper..at least sharper than canon 18-55mm kit lens and colours have more impact too. you can have more editing options too straight after u made some shots, for eg (D-Lighting...basically make the image brighter, monochrome..change it to single colour, miniature...change it to toy like effect)..also nikon is somehow smarter than canon in terms of point and shoot, ie when u put it to auto or programme mode, it still produces decent images..unlike my previous 1000d..but beware of the noise level..it can be abit disturbing..but its understandable since d3000 uses the CCD sensor while 1000d uses the CMOS sensor which creates less noise even when the ISO is shot up...so if u keep the ISO up to 200 then it should be fine..if not jus use brighter exposure compensation in it or the flash! d3000 is also feels better (not too plastic feel) & heavier...when stability and minimal shake is concerned..weight is important.but one bad thing bout d3000 is that the 50mm prime lens..the one for portrait cant rili auto focus on it..so basically have to manual focus which is a pain in the butt...1000d can auto focus the 50mm lens...there is a 35mm prime that can auto focus on d3000 but it cost rm500 more..so sien..another plus thing for d3000 is that it has 11 focus points while 1000d has 7...basically the more is better..basically i changed to nikon cos it allows me more control over settings of shots, images are sharper and the colour looks more appealing. if we compare it among lower ranges..higher ranges might have a different story..these are purely my personal opinion as other dslr users might not agree with me..lol.

bought an external flash too...its a third party though..Nissin..since its cheaper..but it has the same function as the original..haha..it even has wireless flash control..so might experiment on it more for portraits..

currently looking for models to be my experiment..lol..anyone? i wil try to experiment on my sis first so in case u all decide to sacrifice for me..at least i can produce some decent images:P difficult to learn it all by myself...any foto kaki around so that we can share the fun and knowledge? till then..i have to youtube to learn it by myself..lol..till then...hope to bring more decent pictures to u all...and for whoever getting married soon..mayb i can help to take some pictures too...jus shot 2 so far...lol..take care everyone:)

To my future loved one

2009-10-23T23:13:00.001+08:00

You're happy therefore i'm happy, although it meant hurting me in the process..

Happy Birthday

2009-10-22T23:32:00.002+08:00

Just found out today that i have forgotten another best friend's birthday...twice in a month! sigh...if i were the friend..i wud b quite pissed! sigh..my this yr's resolution supposed to be somehow related to this thing...kantoi again...can't turn back the time..damage has been done...sorry..but no cure..my bad :(

Wasting our lives away

2009-10-21T23:44:00.003+08:00

Sometimes it's sad to see people around us wasting their lives away..and worst of all they'll eventually affect the bystanders....sometimes jus wana hit them with a stick...lol

Methadone Clinic

2009-09-16T23:59:00.002+08:00

what is it? it is actually a substitute for heroin...basically u inject or inhale the heroin..but for detoxification programme...methadone is to be ingested. so wats the difference then? u get less 'euphoria' from methadone...u don have to use needle..hence less blood borne disease transmission, eg HIV, hep B, hep C. ur less addicted....basically the withdrawal effect of methadone is less severe than heroin...although longer... with methadone, patient can actually function like a normal person after drinking it..but for heroin..since its action is not as long..after a while...u will be thinking where and when to inject the next dose...and with heroin...u will soon get a damaged circulation system (damage done by all the injecting at different sites...sometimes..they wil even inject their neck or genitals!)anyway....methadone substitution programme is a free of charge programme (if it is run by health ministry)where drug addicts that are determined to quit can enroll in. since it is free, they don have think of where to get the money for the next supply of drug...so less social problem, eg robbery, theft, snatch... they can use the money to buy essential things for family or themselves..the programme also comes with counselling and social support group...the whole concept is kinda cool...but some addicts will always remain as addicts..they are alot smarter..haha..they can lie without bliking! but fortunately there are more that are sincere to change for the better:) anyway...im still learning from them...afterall..like wat my patient said today...i have the theory...but he has the practical knowledge of the drug:P

Has been busy

2009-09-16T23:43:00.002+08:00

5 months into my shift into my new posting at klinik kesihatan nw...has been nice working with two nice doctors..who are always willing to hear my suggestions and accept recommendations...always willing to do something extra for the clinic :) staffs wise...sometimes kinda difficult to have their cooperations...but its improving now..mayb i too have to give them some time to get things done..my pharmacy wise...my assistants have been great..although sometimes they gave me heart attack too for messing the place up and not following wat i have ordered...but they are quite helpful and nice overall...my pharmacy has been fully operational...after the much moving and shifting of furnitures...the 5s thing (system to make the place more organised)is almost finished...there are people helping us to pack the drugs now...all the filling are better managed...the stock things are in progress...all the necessary guidelines for proper prescribing are almost in place..reports are handed in on time...the methadone clinic is running well but still lots of guidelines to be drafted and project to be conducted...has been busy lately...goin back at 6 or even 7 since not much time to get things done during office hrs...looking back..mayb is my mismanagement of time...or mismanagement of human resource..maybe i trust myself more than others...i shud delegate my task more i guess...mayb im too 'gan jiong'...mayb i shud hear my assistant advice--' the work wil never be finished'...ya...we'll get there..but slowly...lol..sometimes i cant stand the work that has been there for ages and not finished..anyhow..hopefully i wil get another pharmacist to help run the pharmacy and methadone clinic better...anyway..thats me..for the past 5 months...hopefully things wil be less busy now..after the meningitis outbreak and the h1n1...hopefully my days wil be less busy:)cya..

女人可杀死老公的4句话

2009-06-01T00:54:00.001+08:00

1 你瞧瞧别人！
　　女人总以此来抱怨男人在某方面的无能，这种无能的指责既可能是事业上的，也会是生活中的，但往往是这句话大大刺伤男人的自尊心，事业是男人生命的重要组成部分，一味地讽刺挖苦就可能将男人置于绝望的境地。既然女人选择了，就应该面对现实，知足常乐，只要男人尽了力，我们就没有责怪他们的理由。君子爱财，取之有道，钱嘛，够花就行，何必强求的太多而让彼此不快乐？对于在事业上失败的男人，女人的安慰和鼓励才是他们最需要的。
　　2 你去哪了？
　　这句话如果是从女人温柔的小嘴飘出来的，倒是让男人感动一下，他体现的是女人对男人的关心，因为这句话后面隐去的是：“我都担心死了”，但若是横眉质问式，就会让男人反胃，因为这句话在警察审问犯人的口供中出现频率最高，比如：“几点到几点之间，你在干什么？”等等，以此确定有没有作案时间。而一部分女人在发问时，往往抱的就是这个态度，似乎男人一刻不在女人眼前出现，就是在外面有不轨行为。其实男人应该拥有自己的生活空间，这个空间是自由的，毕竟男人有着自己的事业和交际圈，爱他就要相信他，相信他就要给他以呼吸的空间，一次两次责问可以，多了就有间谍的嫌疑，彼此之间就会产生隔阂。从法律上讲，男人是没有义务事事需向女人汇报。有些女人也许会说，我的那位就不生气，我问他就会老老实实的回答。这不一定就是好事，男人让着女人并不代表他就是怕女人，他或是心疼，或是不屑纠缠.
　　3 都怪你。
　　女人大多不愿意承认自己的错误，“我错了”这句话往往被认为是男人的专利，女人是不屑说出口的，有些女人表达自己错了的方式就是撒娇，以撒娇来证明自己的理亏是能受到普遍欢迎的，当然也是值得提倡的。而大多数女人却用一句“都怪你”来倒打一耙，女人在许多事情上没有主见，作小小的决定之前总爱问男人：“是这样吗？这样行吗？”，一旦男人点头，便放心大胆地去做，若是成功了，就会兴高采烈，倘若失败了，就会把责任推到男人的身上，主意是男人出的，结果也就应该由男人来承担。其实偶尔说上一句“我错了”会让女人更有魅力。
　　4 谁的电话？
　　如果男人手机响了，女人都会不自觉地问一句：“谁的电话”，如若男人稍有迟疑，就会立即遭到进一步的质疑，正常的电话也会被戴上莫须有的罪名，有些女人有翻看男人手机的爱好，大凡看到陌生的通话记录，都不忘问一句“谁的电话”，有耐心的男人尚加以解释，三番五次的质问就有可能使矛盾升级，手机是男人的宝贝，这话一点不假，作为女人不妨留一点隐私给男人，保持一点神秘感对爱情和婚姻并非无益。

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My new job posting

2009-06-01T00:53:00.002+08:00

It has been two months now since I was in the Klinik Kesihatan. My previous thought of my life in a small clinic…boring…dementia…cobwebs…no on-call…exact time to go back home…stress free…
But so far, life has been everything but those…except the cobwebs…since no one has time to clean up the place…or maybe im too slow to do anything useful…lol…life has been quite interesting here…as I get to be a boss…hmm..with only two staff members below me..lol…talk about organization chart..that consists of just three people..funny! anyway..my assistants have been very supportive towards me. Although they are senior than me..they still respect me…although the same cant be said to other staff member in the clinic..but oh well…I have to figure out how to get things done with their limited support:P it’s kinda fund to order things to be done my way…to organize or run things my way…without having to consult many big shot people above me…things can be done so much faster this way…
Besides the normal dispensing, counseling, filling of prescriptions…I have to help with some product preparation things too…like labeling or prepacking of medicines etc which is pretty time consuming. I have compiled some useful info for the doctors too…just finished the internal audit and the next big thing to come will be the ISO auditing and renovation of my pharmacy. Plus the monthly drug usage report which is to due very soon. A lot to do: ( Most of my time in the pharmacy is spent doing all those things…which looks very easy but in fact they are time consuming too! And they are not as easy as it looks!
I quite like the clinic setting so far…at least I have more time to learn and to help the patients..for example to thoroughly counsel them on illness or drugs, to really find out their hidden problems, to detect any potential mismanagement, to learn more about how doctors manage a patient. I even get to visit the patients at home and counsel led them on the spot where they felt more convenient. Sometimes we are so busy in a busy environment that we have no time to do all these..which is pretty much the basic and perhaps the more important thing, both for health professionals and patients alike.
So for the meantime…hopefully everything will be fine: )

Attitude

2009-06-01T00:53:00.001+08:00

Does it matter if because of ur carelessness, ignorance, incompetence…someone was hurt…although it’s not ur intention? Or is it fate that was to blame?
Does it matter if it is your partner, your parents, your siblings?
As health professionals, whether we like it or not, we have responsibilities on our shoulders… we just have to learn to live with it : )

I like

2009-06-01T00:52:00.000+08:00

I like to do nothing, glazing into the night sky
I like to take pictures of anything at all
I like to spend my time with my family
I like to spend time with my friends, chatting aimlessly, without worries
I like to be alone sometimes, without people asking me why
I like to be in control of things
I like to do things that I felt appropriate, without needing to explain each and everything

Books

2009-06-01T00:51:00.003+08:00

Recently got hooked up with reading…haven’t been reading much besides text books since I went to secondary school..ya…pretty sad case here…but I guess it’s never too late to pick up some books again…and when u find the right book…buy it if it’s not too expensive..we’ll never know when it will be stopped publications or sold out. And don’t forget to buy another one for ur friend too…since u wouldn’t want him/her to miss the great book too: )

Cycle

2009-06-01T00:51:00.001+08:00

When it rains, it touches the ground, flows through the mountains, streams, rivers, consumed by plants, animals and humans….eventually it will go back to where it came from..the sky…it’s a cycle…same goes to the way when we did something good for others. We might not get anything in return..not even a simple ‘thank you’….but we will get something in the end..somehow…So the next time when we are troubled by ungrateful people not appreciating our good deeds, hopefully we can realize that eventually the good things will come back to us..it’s just a matter of time : )

Fair

2009-06-01T00:50:00.000+08:00

Is it fair that parents always love their children more than the children loving them?
Is it fair that among couples, there is always one that loves the other more?
Is it fair that those we helped so much are not the right ones to help us or simply no show when we need them badly?
Is it fair that those that we are not close to, not spending much time with normally, are those that help us when we are in need?
Is there fair or unfair to start with?

Appreciation

2009-06-01T00:48:00.001+08:00

Most often than not, we will only appreciate things or regret about them when it’s too late or when we have lost something. When we are too close to comfort or given too much attention, we might retaliate and take things for granted. It is a rather unfortunate scenario.

Truth?

2009-06-01T00:47:00.000+08:00

When we demand the truth, we have to be prepared to handle the truth well, otherwise we only have the right to be given the partial truth or simply to learn ignoring the truth.

笑我笨

2009-03-06T00:21:00.001+08:00

IQ与EQ。在现实的社会里，往往别人所注意到的，必定是IQ。聪明的肯定会被人赞赏，但勤劳的往往反而会被质疑是否是效率低。你有没有听说过呢？但我始终相信，即使你在聪明，如果没有正确的态度，你能走的，你能做的，你能拥有的，还是很有限的。今天有两位实习不久的同事在讨论如何解决遇到的问题。一位同事提议问在当场的我，但另一位却不耐烦地说：＂不需要问我，因为我也不会＂。一口咬定我不会。我是笨了些，但我吃盐也比他们久吧。。最终我解答了他们的问题。那么自大。至少如果我不会，我会不耻下问。我会寻找答案。笑我没本事吗？笑我比你差吗？世事无绝对, 还是别笑地太早。

Stress buster

2009-03-01T01:16:00.001+08:00

Was pretty down on Friday morning when I was at KK Peringgit. But surprisingly after talking to patients, my mood improved tremendously. That reminded me of an article I read on newspaper the other day about neurology researchers in US who had found out that writing our feelings down can relax ourselves and reduce stress in our lives. This also explains why people writes diaries and songs especially when they were down or frustrated. When we communicate with others…sometimes just talking to another person, even if it’s nothing to do with the problems making us stress, we will feel better somehow. When I was pretty lonely and depressed in NZ, I started writing blog…and it did help in reducing my stress…lol. It’s a stress buster! So I guess the point to be taken is: keep on talking face-to-face, by phone, writing diaries, blogs, chatting wit sms, msn and so on…. And if u haven’t started doing any of the mentioned, start it now… lol

Persistence

2009-03-01T01:12:00.004+08:00

Was chatting with a friend the other day and the song ‘Amazing Grace’ popped out. It reminded me of a movie with the same title which was in cinema few years ago. It tells the story of William Wilberforce, a British Member of Parliament who fought for the passing of bill outlawing slave trade in Britain. He fought for it for 20 years even until his last days when he was very ill. The bill was passed 3 days before he died. When the road ahead seems to be so uncertain, so unpredictable, so difficult to go on…to persist is not easy… To persist in doing what we think is right needs tremendous courage and patience. May we continue to be persistent and ask for God’s help in doing what is good for all.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q6Cv5P9H9qU&feature=PlayList&p=D91388F6288ACF07&playnext=1&index=9

Relieved!

2009-03-01T01:08:00.002+08:00

Today (Friday)..somehow was one of my happiest day for quite a while…coz I have presented my paper…although it was pretty bad…but never mind la..its past tense already…wat a relieved : ) and then I was told that I would have to wait for another extra 2 weeks before having my transfer..that means 2 weeks later than my actual transfer date… but somehow I felt a relieve oso because for the first time I felt a bit of missing the hospital…my colleagues I mean…so was relieved that I have more time to spend with them..lol…it has been quite a blessing to did my training in Hospital Malacca…the senior colleagues here are very nice..very helpful and never tired or stingy of teaching us…and my fellow junior colleagues are also fun to hang out with and enjoyable to work with. Im beginning to feel grateful…lol..(bit slow here since I am emotionless most of the time) anyway…hopefully this coming month would be an enjoyable one and thanks again to all that have been along with me. Appreciated: )

My theories

2009-02-13T23:17:00.003+08:00

I used to be caring to lots of people when I was in NZ…did loads of things for them… mostly for girls coz most of the guys seemed to handle themselves pretty well…but here….somehow I have stopped doing things for girls also….due to past experiences…I have learnt my lessons the hard way…as for guys…I seldom did it in the past anyway…so I din do much for guys here too… I did care for a few guys when I was in NZ…but in return there wasn’t much appreciation expressed by the guys..lol ( I guess most guys are like that:P) anyway…I din do it for appreciation anyway..so it’s kinda expected I guess…most guys will always be guys…since that’s the case…I have assumed that most guys need the least of our help and also we shouldn’t expect much appreciation given by them. and when they do need our help…they would spell it out…not hinting… they will have the guts to ask…not beating around the bush…. not expecting we are the worms in their stomach and know what they’re thinking…

to be frank …im not always appreciative towards what others do for me too..how should I say this..i do appreciate but I failed to return the good gesture most of the time…for me..guys need the least maintenance….they can grow by themselves…without grumbles….unfortunately ..guys are sometimes more sophisticated…lol…they either stay quiet…missing in action…or have the same face gestures…hardly know what are they thinking…what do they want…lol..

for me appreciation is pretty simple..a thank you means a lot to me..a birthday wish…don’t have to be fancy or anything…

after such a long time…finally I have realized that it doesn’t matter what I think or how my theories are…people are always different…even siblings and twins have different personalities..we just have to learn to accept others and cherish the diversities of characters…stop grumbling, stop thinking negatives about others and try our very best to accept each others weaknesses. Forget about perfections in the person next to us…it’s impossible…Hopefully through this we will be happier in our everyday lives : )I wil continue to learn to be more caring to my friends...just bear with my slow learning and 'to regret when it's gone' attitude ya :P

Sorry

2009-01-15T00:28:00.000+08:00

Sorry…just a simple word…but what a difference it would make to great deals of matters. A sorry in an argument will break down the wall of silence…a sorry can often avoid a lot of unnecessary conflicts… we say sorry sometimes even if we did not do any mistakes…simply because we step back and eat the humble pie…we do not want to lose a friendship…but sometimes even if it’s easier to say sorry..we refused to do..simply because we do not want to give a wrong message to the person…we hope that the person would get the message we are sending across…we are taking a risk there…will we lose him/ her by becoming the teacher that says the truth? But sometimes…our ego prevent us to apologise…the word simply can’t be uttered..yet other times, sorry was used so infrequent that it becomes an offensive thing to say…

Truth is often not nice to hear

2009-01-12T01:40:00.001+08:00

A true friend needs to say the truth even if it might hurt your friend…of course in the right time and the right place la. That way your friend would change or improve for the better : )

At the precipice we change

2009-01-12T01:39:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, we are capable of doing what we always thought is impossible …in the event of adversity. When we are forced to be independent, when we are all alone without any help, when we have no other options but to do it…mayb is our adrenaline rush..mayb is our mind taking control over our body…ya, mind IS a very powerful tool…think about the placebo effect..we are ever amazed of what our minds are capable of doing…so this comes back to the question of believing ourselves…do we believe that we can do it…sometimes we have to because there is no other choice but to believe in ourselves…that when we are in adversities…whether we like it or not we have to perform, we have to do it..but unfortunately it won’t work all the time..or else you and me will be seeing records being broken by any tom, dick and harry. Of course only those that believe and work hard enough will achieve their dreams…so comes to the questions of dreams..are we dreaming enough? Just realized that it’s indeed very important to dream..without that we don even have a goal to work towards..then needless to say..without a goal..most probably we won’t go far…so back to the first thing we talk about…sometimes… on the verge of adversities..we might learn something..we might reveal our true capabilities…we might evolve to another level…so when we can still manage…we might have to push ourselves a little bit more before asking help from others..who knows what would we discover: )

Quote of the century

2009-01-12T01:39:00.001+08:00

Came about two interesting quote…don remember it exactly though..sounds something like this-

At the precipice we change (The Day The Earth Stood Still)

You are not worthy to invoke my temper (someone from 988)

p/s:I very like these 2 quotes…hey, post me some of ur favourite quotes ya:)

To build or to destroy a person

2009-01-12T01:38:00.000+08:00

Whether we realized it or not, it is often up to us, to either build or destroy a person’s image, dreams or character. Most of the time, we can’t resist the temptations of complaining about others..we can’t resist to be with other ‘smart ones’ who join the crowd of criticizing others although we didn’t even deal with the person concerned…we can’t afford to be different from our peers that condemned the person concerned…we can’t defend the person concerned even if he/she is in fact different from what our peers described. For me, constructive criticisms should be related to the person in a private setting, not in front of other colleagues and superiors..because we will sometimes destroy that person instantly. Of course, if the matter has been related to him/her for lots of times in private and nothing has changed..then he/she left us no other choice.I would greatly appreciate if I were given a second chance if I make a mistake..to be reminded…not condemned on the spot…I learn from mistakes…mistakes enabled me to never do the same mistake again. but often in real life, once u made a mistake…all the other merits becomes useless.. I, most of the times can’t resist or don’t have the guts to be different too from most people…joining the bandwagon…but sometimes…the least of what we can do is to keep quiet and don’t continue spreading the already torching rumours.

p/s: I haven’t done any mistake or being condemned lately…but others had..unfortunately..

My birthday

2009-01-12T01:37:00.000+08:00

For my 25th birthday…I had 4 birthday cakes:) I would like to thank all that celebrated for my birthday. U guys really made me wana cry..but I did’t :P my tears bit expensive to shed u see…but seriously I was touched…din realized that so many people care for me…I wanna apologise for not caring u guys enough ya..wil try my very best to be a better person:) thanks very much for all the birthday wishes…from afar as well as from here at home…the birthday presents….thank you again and God bless !

It's been a while

2009-01-12T01:36:00.000+08:00

It’s has been very long since I have updated my blog, facebook, Friendster..everything :P so what have I been up to? Kidnapped by aliens? Sort of..

I have been in clinical department…the busiest department for a prp (provisional registered pharmacist)..it was sure one of the most interesting and fun station though..as we see a lot and learnt a lot of things…we get to see patient that stays in wards…we get to walk side by side with doctors and ran away when they want to ask us questions..we get to talk to patients…sometimes longer than we wanted to….its also very tiring also…I worked the hardest in that station…but anyway…its all over..thank God…im free now..sort of…im now at a more peaceful department, supplying medicines to patients in wards.

So wat have I been up to? I have bought a camera lo.. 7000+ shots after 2 months..hmm…lots of try and error I guess..hope it won break down too easily..nothin much le..my bro was married...hung out with frens..thats all lo…been to cameron highlands and some johor trip…hmm…rili cant think of anything else..spend mos of my time in hospital to be honest..sad case….

Anyway..good to be back..hope can update my blog more often:P

Take k everyone and do let me know wat have u been up to ya; )

Tired

2008-11-16T21:39:00.003+08:00

Im feeling very tired now...of all the never ending work at hospital..the silly requirements during registration year...the inconsiderate system...so behind schedule...so much more to do...looking forward to end all this..i wonder when will it end...

Canon EOS 1000D

2008-11-09T22:21:00.005+08:00

Bought this babe few weeks before my bro's wedding...its bout 3 weeks-old now...found it to be quite a good piece of gadget...it takes generally good quality pics..at least from LCD and computer la...not yet print them out though..thinking of getting an external falsh and longer zoom lense soon if i can afford...lol...sigh...wasting more money than i earn..haha..mayb i shud think twice...anyway...wil put them up ya nex time when i have compiled them. till then, tak k everybody:)

Googling

2008-10-20T13:57:00.004+08:00

Remember seeing the cartoonish Google logos during special events, eg Beijing Olympics or Christmas? Apparently they were designed by one of their employees during his compulsory non-work related project (at Google, employees have to spend 20% of their work time (one day per week) on projects that interest them..ya, they are paid to unwind or relax themselves…so nice)..check out the nice logos http://www.google.com/holidaylogos.html….no wonder it is voted the best company to work for in 2008 and 2007...Ok, time to get back to serious stuff..till then, take k ppl:) For more info: www.google.com/intl/en/jobs/fortunemagazine.pdf

友情不能作比较2

2008-09-18T21:54:00.003+08:00

Some friends did a lot for us but in return little is done for them, others we did likewise for them and yet others not only we didn't do much but we even accidentally hurt them.

My new room

2008-09-15T01:48:00.003+08:00

Sort of moved into my new room a few weeks ago..used to be a store room..did a little bit of decorations..err...literally "very little" deco..lol

友情不能作比较

2008-09-15T00:51:00.012+08:00

Human are special indeed ..Some friends..u just knew them for minutes and u can chat with them forever without needing to think of the next topic of conversation...others u have to try so hard and yet there will be those odd silent moments..some friends even when there is those silent moments, u still feel comfortable with each other without needing to break the silence...some friends we can have no worries about sharing our thoughts and feelings...some friends, even if we just didn't talk or meet for few weeks, there will instantly be an awkwardness or communication barrier...

A relationship that will last..against all the odds

2008-09-14T00:17:00.004+08:00

Found these videos in you tube… They were the songs that accompanied me when I was in NZ..They gave me strength when I was defeated and filled me with peace when I was down..They also remind me of who I am when everything is well and good. Hope they will be an inspiration for u as well: )

Jesus Christ You are My Life http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GXNueD_z4ew

Sing To Jesus http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SODks36AdI8

Grace & Peace to You http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1qDnifVpGp8

Be Thou My Vision http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5p9sc3anclQ

Still Beside Me http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tkW3vDvV_Zk

All Creatures of Our God and King http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hx0RMFz8wCM&feature=related

Pass Me Not http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6y6l_YOph0Y

Wall E 观后感触

2008-09-08T00:47:00.001+08:00

曾几何时我们放下所忙的，注意看看你身边的事物，身边的人？

曾几何时我们放下所订的条例，捡回原则，找回人性？

曾几何时我们为了所爱的，所关心的人，赴汤蹈火？

曾几何时我们因为怕走出温床，对该有的改变说不？

曾几何时我们在失去了，才懂得珍惜？

曾几何时。。。

Photography

2008-09-08T00:46:00.001+08:00

Photography…for me it’s just another brush to paint a picture or to tell a story..a photographer is also a good liar because a skillful one will show the audience what he/she wants them to see through the lens..lol. There are different views about what this art should be like though. Some says a conceptual photograph is the one to stay since a message or mood is conveyed. It makes u think. Others snaps only pictures with the perfect colours, tone, lighting and perspectives. I guess as an art form..it can consists of both. It doesn’t have to be ‘either’ ‘or’. None is inferior to the other. Of course I guess the best should consists of both.. but what’s the point of all this if we just go around snapping all the masterpieces if we don’t capture the moments of our lives? Most of the times, the random, unartistic everyday pictures are the ones that will leave us with the most memories when we look back at them..not the conceptual or the one with perfect colours or lightings. Imagine how unenjoyable a trip would be if we keep on snapping for the best art work and we miss the opportunity to sit back and enjoy the views with our own eyes. But sometimes I just can’t control my hands too..which annoys my friends who often seen me missing in action taking pictures. I used to hate people that edit their photos with softwares..to me that is unauthentic. But nowadays I believe having the editing by softwares brings in a whole new possibilities to photography.. it’s expanding the creativity of artists..

Photography is my passion although im not good at it.. it’s a way for me to release stress and to share with others what I see. Not quite sure why I write this posting though…lol..maybe im paying a tribute to all the cameras that served me beforeJ thank you cameras!! Ps: pls admit me to psy ward asap…

Secret

2008-09-08T00:34:00.002+08:00

Can u keep a secret? Most of the time it’s totally not a big deal..its gossip or rumours anyway…it’s technically not a secret..but what if it is a big deal…maybe we don’t see it as such but the person whom the secret involves think it is or the person who told us think it is..so when the news broke out…we often won’t anticipate the damage done. What if by telling the ‘small secret’, the person who told us the secret is blamed by the person whom the secret involves in the first place. It’s a small world you see and it is not hard to notice who leak out the secret in the first place. We might not mind being blamed but have we think of the person who told us the secret because he/she trusted us not to tell. When people said ‘don’t tell others ya’..most of the time we will still tell simply because we can’t resist the temptation to gossip about it.. or simply because it’s not a big deal… I guess most of the time..since each of us always have best friends…after hearing a secret..we promised to ourselves that we will only tell 1 best friend..but our only best friend will also promised to just tell his/her best friend and cycle continues.. haha…im thinking too much here I guess…. But it’s quite true also.. Ya…it’s a balance…sometimes even when we are told not to tell others..we have to tell eventually because by not telling others, the matter will become worse (eg expert advice is needed or people closest to that person need to know it to help a that person)..but I guess it’s better for us choose not to tell when telling will further spread the unverified rumours, telling will make no difference or making things worse, it’s better for others not to know, or it’s a very private matter. Most of the time, its risk vs benefit…and it’s not easy to find the balance. For a lot of us, keeping a secret can be the hardest thing in the world....but we still do it because of ‘we have been trusted a secret’. But I guess for our own secrets or inner thoughts or feelings, it’s unhealthy to keep it to ourselves all the time unless telling it will cause more damage to others or ourselves. If not, why not find a friend that we can trust and pour our hearts out. Of course, for secrets others entrusted to us would be a different story. But we can’t generalize often as there are exceptions. May all of us make the best judgments, may we have the wisdom to do more good than harm and may all the decisions whether to tell or not to tell will be of good intention : )

Smile

2008-09-08T00:29:00.005+08:00

1, 2,3 smile! When u practise this on yourself, you will find that your mood will dramatically change for the better. I have tried it after some of my friends told me about this a while ago and it really works. Don’t believe me? tried it for yourself! You can do it first thing in the morning, before having a meeting, seeing your employer or employee or client, going to work or coming back home. Smile is infective and a small gesture that you do will affect others for the better. When you smile, you’ll project a positive image and aurora, and your colleagues will thank you for that. And most importantly, most of the time your smile will come back to you in a positive way. So the next time we can’t help to put on a grumpy face, remember to put a cue to ourselves “1, 2, 3 smile!” and hopefully our and others mood will improve a little : )

Home Sweet Home

2008-09-07T23:36:00.006+08:00

Yo yo everyone!! Sorry for the very late update.. ya, I’m still on planet Earth!

It has been 8 months since I was back from New Zealand. Time really flies!! So what have I been up to all this while? Haha..Went to visit some friends and had a wonderful time with them…Sunway Lagoon, The Curve, Pavillion.. they even followed me back to Malacca! Sure was fun then… thoroughly enjoy the times I had with u all guys!! Hope u all don’t forget me since mos of u n nz now..lol..

Went to Putrajaya too for my interview with officer from JPA…which after 1 month or so…landed me with a job..in Malacca General Hospital.. where I am working now. Life has been a routine from then onwards..haha…sort of…but has been fun also most of the time. So what exactly is my day like in hospital? Basically since im still a provisionally registered pharmacist (PRP) I get to ‘travel’ around different department almost every month to absorb all the knowledge available for me…hmm..sounds like a plant or sponge here..lol..anyway..ya…one thing good about being a PRP is even though we don like a particular department, we will be gone to another different one before long..haha..but after this yr..when we are assigned to a fix department..if we don like that then..its too bad…coz we are stuck there for 3 yrs..sob2..coz for all registered pharmacist in Malaysia..we will have to work for 1 year to become fully registered pharmacist (FRP) and then another 3 yrs of compulsory service with government sector.

I had been to outpatient department (giving medicines to patient that are going home after seeing the doctors or discharging from wards after they are well), inpatient department (giving medicines to patients staying in hospital ward mainly due to more severe illness that require hospitalizations), medical store department (deals with purchase and distributing medicines and medical equipments of hospital and nearby clinics), drug information service (answers all kinds of queries that the hospital health professionals forwarded or from the public), therapeutic drug monitoring department (monitors the drug level in the circulation system of patients by running test on the blood collected from them and give recommendations to doctors) and currently in the cytotoxic drug department (calculate the appropriate doses and assist in preparation of anti-cancer drugs).

So the only routine here is work, work and more work.. besides working from 8 to 5 Monday to Friday..we have to work according to roasters too..sometimes came early for morning shift (7.30 to 8am), sometimes luch call (1-2pm), sometimes after 5 (5-6pm), sometimes night time (10pm to 7.30am), sometimes weekends (10am to 4pm)…and the newest to this collection of extra working hours is the 2 – 10pm shift…I wonder where should I park my car then since we have to be here quite early to get carpark in the morning…hmm..finding carpark at 2 would be a feat..haha..anyway…with all these I should be rich cos I work extra hours but guess what..we can’t claim for overtimes….lol..nway…I guess we can always look at the bright side…we will be more experienced with all these extra practice and we get to provide more services & care to the patients…FUYOH!! So noble!

But thank God… life in HM has been interesting so far..a lot of new things to learn since we kept on changing departments and meet new colleagues (esp for PRP). We have almost 40+ pharmacists and another 30+ support members (assistant pharmacists, trainees etc).. so it’s like a big family here…so far the seniors that I met had been very helpful…they are most of time happy to teach us…and the rumours of them being stingy of sharing knowledge with the juniors are minimal..had got to know a few good friends here too : ) But of course there are dramas, gossips and office politics too over here..haha..but can’t complain too much..i have heard worse scenarios else where…

Working has been to me…quite tiring…although I stay at home without having to worry about meals..but still every day after work I found myself too tired to do anything..haha..so most of the time, I just sit on the couch and watch tv…lazy bump here..lol..of course have to do some homework (we do have assignment and projects since we are provisionally registered aka under training)..but sometimes, few of us colleagues do go out for drink or catch a movie..hmm….maybe im the only one not being productive after work…sigh..have to start exercising and move my lazy bump…

Wow…talked so much about work…ya..ya..this is actually hinting that I have no life apart from work..haha…so wats up from here onwards? Hmm..im getting a new camera soon..hopefully…maybe an SLR ….trying to finish watching some tv series that I have borrowed…trying to read more…trying to start exercising more often…trying to learn some graphics related softwares…trying to reply emails and updates u all with myself more often…trying to be more involved in church activities…wow..so many trying…haha…hopefully will have some success stories behind all these tryings..haha..

So how bout u all out there? So sorry it took me so long to update anything about myself..as I have said…the tryings has been going on for a while.haha…will try harder next time to better manage my time :P okla, till we meet again, take care and God bless!! Do drop by to update me with the latest news about urself ya : )