I like

I like to do nothing, glazing into the night sky
I like to take pictures of anything at all
I like to spend my time with my family
I like to spend time with my friends, chatting aimlessly, without worries
I like to be alone sometimes, without people asking me why
I like to be in control of things
I like to do things that I felt appropriate, without needing to explain each and everything

Books

Recently got hooked up with reading…haven’t been reading much besides text books since I went to secondary school..ya…pretty sad case here…but I guess it’s never too late to pick up some books again…and when u find the right book…buy it if it’s not too expensive..we’ll never know when it will be stopped publications or sold out. And don’t forget to buy another one for ur friend too…since u wouldn’t want him/her to miss the great book too: )

Cycle

When it rains, it touches the ground, flows through the mountains, streams, rivers, consumed by plants, animals and humans….eventually it will go back to where it came from..the sky…it’s a cycle…same goes to the way when we did something good for others. We might not get anything in return..not even a simple ‘thank you’….but we will get something in the end..somehow…So the next time when we are troubled by ungrateful people not appreciating our good deeds, hopefully we can realize that eventually the good things will come back to us..it’s just a matter of time : )

Fair

Is it fair that parents always love their children more than the children loving them?
Is it fair that among couples, there is always one that loves the other more?
Is it fair that those we helped so much are not the right ones to help us or simply no show when we need them badly?
Is it fair that those that we are not close to, not spending much time with normally, are those that help us when we are in need?
Is there fair or unfair to start with?

Appreciation

Most often than not, we will only appreciate things or regret about them when it’s too late or when we have lost something. When we are too close to comfort or given too much attention, we might retaliate and take things for granted. It is a rather unfortunate scenario.

Truth?

When we demand the truth, we have to be prepared to handle the truth well, otherwise we only have the right to be given the partial truth or simply to learn ignoring the truth.

笑我笨

IQ与EQ。在现实的社会里，往往别人所注意到的，必定是IQ。聪明的肯定会被人赞赏，但勤劳的往往反而会被质疑是否是效率低。你有没有听说过呢？但我始终相信，即使你在聪明，如果没有正确的态度，你能走的，你能做的，你能拥有的，还是很有限的。今天有两位实习不久的同事在讨论如何解决遇到的问题。一位同事提议问在当场的我，但另一位却不耐烦地说：＂不需要问我，因为我也不会＂。一口咬定我不会。我是笨了些，但我吃盐也比他们久吧。。最终我解答了他们的问题。那么自大。至少如果我不会，我会不耻下问。我会寻找答案。笑我没本事吗？笑我比你差吗？世事无绝对, 还是别笑地太早。

Stress buster

Was pretty down on Friday morning when I was at KK Peringgit. But surprisingly after talking to patients, my mood improved tremendously. That reminded me of an article I read on newspaper the other day about neurology researchers in US who had found out that writing our feelings down can relax ourselves and reduce stress in our lives. This also explains why people writes diaries and songs especially when they were down or frustrated. When we communicate with others…sometimes just talking to another person, even if it’s nothing to do with the problems making us stress, we will feel better somehow. When I was pretty lonely and depressed in NZ, I started writing blog…and it did help in reducing my stress…lol. It’s a stress buster! So I guess the point to be taken is: keep on talking face-to-face, by phone, writing diaries, blogs, chatting wit sms, msn and so on…. And if u haven’t started doing any of the mentioned, start it now… lol

Persistence

Was chatting with a friend the other day and the song ‘Amazing Grace’ popped out. It reminded me of a movie with the same title which was in cinema few years ago. It tells the story of William Wilberforce, a British Member of Parliament who fought for the passing of bill outlawing slave trade in Britain. He fought for it for 20 years even until his last days when he was very ill. The bill was passed 3 days before he died. When the road ahead seems to be so uncertain, so unpredictable, so difficult to go on…to persist is not easy… To persist in doing what we think is right needs tremendous courage and patience. May we continue to be persistent and ask for God’s help in doing what is good for all.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q6Cv5P9H9qU&feature=PlayList&p=D91388F6288ACF07&playnext=1&index=9

Relieved!

Today (Friday)..somehow was one of my happiest day for quite a while…coz I have presented my paper…although it was pretty bad…but never mind la..its past tense already…wat a relieved : ) and then I was told that I would have to wait for another extra 2 weeks before having my transfer..that means 2 weeks later than my actual transfer date… but somehow I felt a relieve oso because for the first time I felt a bit of missing the hospital…my colleagues I mean…so was relieved that I have more time to spend with them..lol…it has been quite a blessing to did my training in Hospital Malacca…the senior colleagues here are very nice..very helpful and never tired or stingy of teaching us…and my fellow junior colleagues are also fun to hang out with and enjoyable to work with. Im beginning to feel grateful…lol..(bit slow here since I am emotionless most of the time) anyway…hopefully this coming month would be an enjoyable one and thanks again to all that have been along with me. Appreciated: )

My theories

I used to be caring to lots of people when I was in NZ…did loads of things for them… mostly for girls coz most of the guys seemed to handle themselves pretty well…but here….somehow I have stopped doing things for girls also….due to past experiences…I have learnt my lessons the hard way…as for guys…I seldom did it in the past anyway…so I din do much for guys here too… I did care for a few guys when I was in NZ…but in return there wasn’t much appreciation expressed by the guys..lol ( I guess most guys are like that:P) anyway…I din do it for appreciation anyway..so it’s kinda expected I guess…most guys will always be guys…since that’s the case…I have assumed that most guys need the least of our help and also we shouldn’t expect much appreciation given by them. and when they do need our help…they would spell it out…not hinting… they will have the guts to ask…not beating around the bush…. not expecting we are the worms in their stomach and know what they’re thinking…

to be frank …im not always appreciative towards what others do for me too..how should I say this..i do appreciate but I failed to return the good gesture most of the time…for me..guys need the least maintenance….they can grow by themselves…without grumbles….unfortunately ..guys are sometimes more sophisticated…lol…they either stay quiet…missing in action…or have the same face gestures…hardly know what are they thinking…what do they want…lol..

for me appreciation is pretty simple..a thank you means a lot to me..a birthday wish…don’t have to be fancy or anything…

after such a long time…finally I have realized that it doesn’t matter what I think or how my theories are…people are always different…even siblings and twins have different personalities..we just have to learn to accept others and cherish the diversities of characters…stop grumbling, stop thinking negatives about others and try our very best to accept each others weaknesses. Forget about perfections in the person next to us…it’s impossible…Hopefully through this we will be happier in our everyday lives : )I wil continue to learn to be more caring to my friends...just bear with my slow learning and 'to regret when it's gone' attitude ya :P

Sorry

Sorry…just a simple word…but what a difference it would make to great deals of matters. A sorry in an argument will break down the wall of silence…a sorry can often avoid a lot of unnecessary conflicts… we say sorry sometimes even if we did not do any mistakes…simply because we step back and eat the humble pie…we do not want to lose a friendship…but sometimes even if it’s easier to say sorry..we refused to do..simply because we do not want to give a wrong message to the person…we hope that the person would get the message we are sending across…we are taking a risk there…will we lose him/ her by becoming the teacher that says the truth? But sometimes…our ego prevent us to apologise…the word simply can’t be uttered..yet other times, sorry was used so infrequent that it becomes an offensive thing to say…

Truth is often not nice to hear

A true friend needs to say the truth even if it might hurt your friend…of course in the right time and the right place la. That way your friend would change or improve for the better : )

At the precipice we change

Sometimes, we are capable of doing what we always thought is impossible …in the event of adversity. When we are forced to be independent, when we are all alone without any help, when we have no other options but to do it…mayb is our adrenaline rush..mayb is our mind taking control over our body…ya, mind IS a very powerful tool…think about the placebo effect..we are ever amazed of what our minds are capable of doing…so this comes back to the question of believing ourselves…do we believe that we can do it…sometimes we have to because there is no other choice but to believe in ourselves…that when we are in adversities…whether we like it or not we have to perform, we have to do it..but unfortunately it won’t work all the time..or else you and me will be seeing records being broken by any tom, dick and harry. Of course only those that believe and work hard enough will achieve their dreams…so comes to the questions of dreams..are we dreaming enough? Just realized that it’s indeed very important to dream..without that we don even have a goal to work towards..then needless to say..without a goal..most probably we won’t go far…so back to the first thing we talk about…sometimes… on the verge of adversities..we might learn something..we might reveal our true capabilities…we might evolve to another level…so when we can still manage…we might have to push ourselves a little bit more before asking help from others..who knows what would we discover: )

Quote of the century

Came about two interesting quote…don remember it exactly though..sounds something like this-

At the precipice we change (The Day The Earth Stood Still)

You are not worthy to invoke my temper (someone from 988)

p/s:I very like these 2 quotes…hey, post me some of ur favourite quotes ya:)

To build or to destroy a person

Whether we realized it or not, it is often up to us, to either build or destroy a person’s image, dreams or character. Most of the time, we can’t resist the temptations of complaining about others..we can’t resist to be with other ‘smart ones’ who join the crowd of criticizing others although we didn’t even deal with the person concerned…we can’t afford to be different from our peers that condemned the person concerned…we can’t defend the person concerned even if he/she is in fact different from what our peers described. For me, constructive criticisms should be related to the person in a private setting, not in front of other colleagues and superiors..because we will sometimes destroy that person instantly. Of course, if the matter has been related to him/her for lots of times in private and nothing has changed..then he/she left us no other choice.I would greatly appreciate if I were given a second chance if I make a mistake..to be reminded…not condemned on the spot…I learn from mistakes…mistakes enabled me to never do the same mistake again. but often in real life, once u made a mistake…all the other merits becomes useless.. I, most of the times can’t resist or don’t have the guts to be different too from most people…joining the bandwagon…but sometimes…the least of what we can do is to keep quiet and don’t continue spreading the already torching rumours.

p/s: I haven’t done any mistake or being condemned lately…but others had..unfortunately..

My birthday

For my 25th birthday…I had 4 birthday cakes:) I would like to thank all that celebrated for my birthday. U guys really made me wana cry..but I did’t :P my tears bit expensive to shed u see…but seriously I was touched…din realized that so many people care for me…I wanna apologise for not caring u guys enough ya..wil try my very best to be a better person:) thanks very much for all the birthday wishes…from afar as well as from here at home…the birthday presents….thank you again and God bless !

It's been a while

It’s has been very long since I have updated my blog, facebook, Friendster..everything :P so what have I been up to? Kidnapped by aliens? Sort of..

I have been in clinical department…the busiest department for a prp (provisional registered pharmacist)..it was sure one of the most interesting and fun station though..as we see a lot and learnt a lot of things…we get to see patient that stays in wards…we get to walk side by side with doctors and ran away when they want to ask us questions..we get to talk to patients…sometimes longer than we wanted to….its also very tiring also…I worked the hardest in that station…but anyway…its all over..thank God…im free now..sort of…im now at a more peaceful department, supplying medicines to patients in wards.

So wat have I been up to? I have bought a camera lo.. 7000+ shots after 2 months..hmm…lots of try and error I guess..hope it won break down too easily..nothin much le..my bro was married...hung out with frens..thats all lo…been to cameron highlands and some johor trip…hmm…rili cant think of anything else..spend mos of my time in hospital to be honest..sad case….

Anyway..good to be back..hope can update my blog more often:P

Take k everyone and do let me know wat have u been up to ya; )

Tired

Im feeling very tired now...of all the never ending work at hospital..the silly requirements during registration year...the inconsiderate system...so behind schedule...so much more to do...looking forward to end all this..i wonder when will it end...

Canon EOS 1000D

Bought this babe few weeks before my bro's wedding...its bout 3 weeks-old now...found it to be quite a good piece of gadget...it takes generally good quality pics..at least from LCD and computer la...not yet print them out though..thinking of getting an external falsh and longer zoom lense soon if i can afford...lol...sigh...wasting more money than i earn..haha..mayb i shud think twice...anyway...wil put them up ya nex time when i have compiled them. till then, tak k everybody:)