To my future loved one

You're happy therefore i'm happy, although it meant hurting me in the process..

Happy Birthday

Just found out today that i have forgotten another best friend's birthday...twice in a month! sigh...if i were the friend..i wud b quite pissed! sigh..my this yr's resolution supposed to be somehow related to this thing...kantoi again...can't turn back the time..damage has been done...sorry..but no cure..my bad :(

Wasting our lives away

Sometimes it's sad to see people around us wasting their lives away..and worst of all they'll eventually affect the bystanders....sometimes jus wana hit them with a stick...lol

Methadone Clinic

what is it? it is actually a substitute for heroin...basically u inject or inhale the heroin..but for detoxification programme...methadone is to be ingested. so wats the difference then? u get less 'euphoria' from methadone...u don have to use needle..hence less blood borne disease transmission, eg HIV, hep B, hep C. ur less addicted....basically the withdrawal effect of methadone is less severe than heroin...although longer... with methadone, patient can actually function like a normal person after drinking it..but for heroin..since its action is not as long..after a while...u will be thinking where and when to inject the next dose...and with heroin...u will soon get a damaged circulation system (damage done by all the injecting at different sites...sometimes..they wil even inject their neck or genitals!)anyway....methadone substitution programme is a free of charge programme (if it is run by health ministry)where drug addicts that are determined to quit can enroll in. since it is free, they don have think of where to get the money for the next supply of drug...so less social problem, eg robbery, theft, snatch... they can use the money to buy essential things for family or themselves..the programme also comes with counselling and social support group...the whole concept is kinda cool...but some addicts will always remain as addicts..they are alot smarter..haha..they can lie without bliking! but fortunately there are more that are sincere to change for the better:) anyway...im still learning from them...afterall..like wat my patient said today...i have the theory...but he has the practical knowledge of the drug:P

Has been busy

5 months into my shift into my new posting at klinik kesihatan nw...has been nice working with two nice doctors..who are always willing to hear my suggestions and accept recommendations...always willing to do something extra for the clinic :) staffs wise...sometimes kinda difficult to have their cooperations...but its improving now..mayb i too have to give them some time to get things done..my pharmacy wise...my assistants have been great..although sometimes they gave me heart attack too for messing the place up and not following wat i have ordered...but they are quite helpful and nice overall...my pharmacy has been fully operational...after the much moving and shifting of furnitures...the 5s thing (system to make the place more organised)is almost finished...there are people helping us to pack the drugs now...all the filling are better managed...the stock things are in progress...all the necessary guidelines for proper prescribing are almost in place..reports are handed in on time...the methadone clinic is running well but still lots of guidelines to be drafted and project to be conducted...has been busy lately...goin back at 6 or even 7 since not much time to get things done during office hrs...looking back..mayb is my mismanagement of time...or mismanagement of human resource..maybe i trust myself more than others...i shud delegate my task more i guess...mayb im too 'gan jiong'...mayb i shud hear my assistant advice--' the work wil never be finished'...ya...we'll get there..but slowly...lol..sometimes i cant stand the work that has been there for ages and not finished..anyhow..hopefully i wil get another pharmacist to help run the pharmacy and methadone clinic better...anyway..thats me..for the past 5 months...hopefully things wil be less busy now..after the meningitis outbreak and the h1n1...hopefully my days wil be less busy:)cya..

女人可杀死老公的4句话

　　1 你瞧瞧别人！
　　女人总以此来抱怨男人在某方面的无能，这种无能的指责既可能是事业上的，也会是生活中的，但往往是这句话大大刺伤男人的自尊心，事业是男人生命的重要组成部分，一味地讽刺挖苦就可能将男人置于绝望的境地。既然女人选择了，就应该面对现实，知足常乐，只要男人尽了力，我们就没有责怪他们的理由。君子爱财，取之有道，钱嘛，够花就行，何必强求的太多而让彼此不快乐？对于在事业上失败的男人，女人的安慰和鼓励才是他们最需要的。
　　2 你去哪了？
　　这句话如果是从女人温柔的小嘴飘出来的，倒是让男人感动一下，他体现的是女人对男人的关心，因为这句话后面隐去的是：“我都担心死了”，但若是横眉质问式，就会让男人反胃，因为这句话在警察审问犯人的口供中出现频率最高，比如：“几点到几点之间，你在干什么？”等等，以此确定有没有作案时间。而一部分女人在发问时，往往抱的就是这个态度，似乎男人一刻不在女人眼前出现，就是在外面有不轨行为。其实男人应该拥有自己的生活空间，这个空间是自由的，毕竟男人有着自己的事业和交际圈，爱他就要相信他，相信他就要给他以呼吸的空间，一次两次责问可以，多了就有间谍的嫌疑，彼此之间就会产生隔阂。从法律上讲，男人是没有义务事事需向女人汇报。有些女人也许会说，我的那位就不生气，我问他就会老老实实的回答。这不一定就是好事，男人让着女人并不代表他就是怕女人，他或是心疼，或是不屑纠缠.
　　3 都怪你。
　　女人大多不愿意承认自己的错误，“我错了”这句话往往被认为是男人的专利，女人是不屑说出口的，有些女人表达自己错了的方式就是撒娇，以撒娇来证明自己的理亏是能受到普遍欢迎的，当然也是值得提倡的。而大多数女人却用一句“都怪你”来倒打一耙，女人在许多事情上没有主见，作小小的决定之前总爱问男人：“是这样吗？这样行吗？”，一旦男人点头，便放心大胆地去做，若是成功了，就会兴高采烈，倘若失败了，就会把责任推到男人的身上，主意是男人出的，结果也就应该由男人来承担。其实偶尔说上一句“我错了”会让女人更有魅力。
　　4 谁的电话？
　　如果男人手机响了，女人都会不自觉地问一句：“谁的电话”，如若男人稍有迟疑，就会立即遭到进一步的质疑，正常的电话也会被戴上莫须有的罪名， 有些女人有翻看男人手机的爱好，大凡看到陌生的通话记录，都不忘问一句“谁的电话”，有耐心的男人尚加以解释，三番五次的质问就有可能使矛盾升级，手机是男人的宝贝，这话一点不假，作为女人不妨留一点隐私给男人，保持一点神秘感对爱情和婚姻并非无益。

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My new job posting

It has been two months now since I was in the Klinik Kesihatan. My previous thought of my life in a small clinic…boring…dementia…cobwebs…no on-call…exact time to go back home…stress free…
But so far, life has been everything but those…except the cobwebs…since no one has time to clean up the place…or maybe im too slow to do anything useful…lol…life has been quite interesting here…as I get to be a boss…hmm..with only two staff members below me..lol…talk about organization chart..that consists of just three people..funny! anyway..my assistants have been very supportive towards me. Although they are senior than me..they still respect me…although the same cant be said to other staff member in the clinic..but oh well…I have to figure out how to get things done with their limited support:P it’s kinda fund to order things to be done my way…to organize or run things my way…without having to consult many big shot people above me…things can be done so much faster this way…
Besides the normal dispensing, counseling, filling of prescriptions…I have to help with some product preparation things too…like labeling or prepacking of medicines etc which is pretty time consuming. I have compiled some useful info for the doctors too…just finished the internal audit and the next big thing to come will be the ISO auditing and renovation of my pharmacy. Plus the monthly drug usage report which is to due very soon. A lot to do: ( Most of my time in the pharmacy is spent doing all those things…which looks very easy but in fact they are time consuming too! And they are not as easy as it looks!
I quite like the clinic setting so far…at least I have more time to learn and to help the patients..for example to thoroughly counsel them on illness or drugs, to really find out their hidden problems, to detect any potential mismanagement, to learn more about how doctors manage a patient. I even get to visit the patients at home and counsel led them on the spot where they felt more convenient. Sometimes we are so busy in a busy environment that we have no time to do all these..which is pretty much the basic and perhaps the more important thing, both for health professionals and patients alike.
So for the meantime…hopefully everything will be fine: )

Attitude

Does it matter if because of ur carelessness, ignorance, incompetence…someone was hurt…although it’s not ur intention? Or is it fate that was to blame?
Does it matter if it is your partner, your parents, your siblings?
As health professionals, whether we like it or not, we have responsibilities on our shoulders… we just have to learn to live with it : )

I like

I like to do nothing, glazing into the night sky
I like to take pictures of anything at all
I like to spend my time with my family
I like to spend time with my friends, chatting aimlessly, without worries
I like to be alone sometimes, without people asking me why
I like to be in control of things
I like to do things that I felt appropriate, without needing to explain each and everything

Books

Recently got hooked up with reading…haven’t been reading much besides text books since I went to secondary school..ya…pretty sad case here…but I guess it’s never too late to pick up some books again…and when u find the right book…buy it if it’s not too expensive..we’ll never know when it will be stopped publications or sold out. And don’t forget to buy another one for ur friend too…since u wouldn’t want him/her to miss the great book too: )

Cycle

When it rains, it touches the ground, flows through the mountains, streams, rivers, consumed by plants, animals and humans….eventually it will go back to where it came from..the sky…it’s a cycle…same goes to the way when we did something good for others. We might not get anything in return..not even a simple ‘thank you’….but we will get something in the end..somehow…So the next time when we are troubled by ungrateful people not appreciating our good deeds, hopefully we can realize that eventually the good things will come back to us..it’s just a matter of time : )

Fair

Is it fair that parents always love their children more than the children loving them?
Is it fair that among couples, there is always one that loves the other more?
Is it fair that those we helped so much are not the right ones to help us or simply no show when we need them badly?
Is it fair that those that we are not close to, not spending much time with normally, are those that help us when we are in need?
Is there fair or unfair to start with?

Appreciation

Most often than not, we will only appreciate things or regret about them when it’s too late or when we have lost something. When we are too close to comfort or given too much attention, we might retaliate and take things for granted. It is a rather unfortunate scenario.

Truth?

When we demand the truth, we have to be prepared to handle the truth well, otherwise we only have the right to be given the partial truth or simply to learn ignoring the truth.

笑我笨

IQ与EQ。在现实的社会里，往往别人所注意到的，必定是IQ。聪明的肯定会被人赞赏，但勤劳的往往反而会被质疑是否是效率低。你有没有听说过呢？但我始终相信，即使你在聪明，如果没有正确的态度，你能走的，你能做的，你能拥有的，还是很有限的。今天有两位实习不久的同事在讨论如何解决遇到的问题。一位同事提议问在当场的我，但另一位却不耐烦地说：＂不需要问我，因为我也不会＂。一口咬定我不会。我是笨了些，但我吃盐也比他们久吧。。最终我解答了他们的问题。那么自大。至少如果我不会，我会不耻下问。我会寻找答案。笑我没本事吗？笑我比你差吗？世事无绝对, 还是别笑地太早。

Stress buster

Was pretty down on Friday morning when I was at KK Peringgit. But surprisingly after talking to patients, my mood improved tremendously. That reminded me of an article I read on newspaper the other day about neurology researchers in US who had found out that writing our feelings down can relax ourselves and reduce stress in our lives. This also explains why people writes diaries and songs especially when they were down or frustrated. When we communicate with others…sometimes just talking to another person, even if it’s nothing to do with the problems making us stress, we will feel better somehow. When I was pretty lonely and depressed in NZ, I started writing blog…and it did help in reducing my stress…lol. It’s a stress buster! So I guess the point to be taken is: keep on talking face-to-face, by phone, writing diaries, blogs, chatting wit sms, msn and so on…. And if u haven’t started doing any of the mentioned, start it now… lol

Persistence

Was chatting with a friend the other day and the song ‘Amazing Grace’ popped out. It reminded me of a movie with the same title which was in cinema few years ago. It tells the story of William Wilberforce, a British Member of Parliament who fought for the passing of bill outlawing slave trade in Britain. He fought for it for 20 years even until his last days when he was very ill. The bill was passed 3 days before he died. When the road ahead seems to be so uncertain, so unpredictable, so difficult to go on…to persist is not easy… To persist in doing what we think is right needs tremendous courage and patience. May we continue to be persistent and ask for God’s help in doing what is good for all.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q6Cv5P9H9qU&feature=PlayList&p=D91388F6288ACF07&playnext=1&index=9

Relieved!

Today (Friday)..somehow was one of my happiest day for quite a while…coz I have presented my paper…although it was pretty bad…but never mind la..its past tense already…wat a relieved : ) and then I was told that I would have to wait for another extra 2 weeks before having my transfer..that means 2 weeks later than my actual transfer date… but somehow I felt a relieve oso because for the first time I felt a bit of missing the hospital…my colleagues I mean…so was relieved that I have more time to spend with them..lol…it has been quite a blessing to did my training in Hospital Malacca…the senior colleagues here are very nice..very helpful and never tired or stingy of teaching us…and my fellow junior colleagues are also fun to hang out with and enjoyable to work with. Im beginning to feel grateful…lol..(bit slow here since I am emotionless most of the time) anyway…hopefully this coming month would be an enjoyable one and thanks again to all that have been along with me. Appreciated: )

My theories

I used to be caring to lots of people when I was in NZ…did loads of things for them… mostly for girls coz most of the guys seemed to handle themselves pretty well…but here….somehow I have stopped doing things for girls also….due to past experiences…I have learnt my lessons the hard way…as for guys…I seldom did it in the past anyway…so I din do much for guys here too… I did care for a few guys when I was in NZ…but in return there wasn’t much appreciation expressed by the guys..lol ( I guess most guys are like that:P) anyway…I din do it for appreciation anyway..so it’s kinda expected I guess…most guys will always be guys…since that’s the case…I have assumed that most guys need the least of our help and also we shouldn’t expect much appreciation given by them. and when they do need our help…they would spell it out…not hinting… they will have the guts to ask…not beating around the bush…. not expecting we are the worms in their stomach and know what they’re thinking…

to be frank …im not always appreciative towards what others do for me too..how should I say this..i do appreciate but I failed to return the good gesture most of the time…for me..guys need the least maintenance….they can grow by themselves…without grumbles….unfortunately ..guys are sometimes more sophisticated…lol…they either stay quiet…missing in action…or have the same face gestures…hardly know what are they thinking…what do they want…lol..

for me appreciation is pretty simple..a thank you means a lot to me..a birthday wish…don’t have to be fancy or anything…

after such a long time…finally I have realized that it doesn’t matter what I think or how my theories are…people are always different…even siblings and twins have different personalities..we just have to learn to accept others and cherish the diversities of characters…stop grumbling, stop thinking negatives about others and try our very best to accept each others weaknesses. Forget about perfections in the person next to us…it’s impossible…Hopefully through this we will be happier in our everyday lives : )I wil continue to learn to be more caring to my friends...just bear with my slow learning and 'to regret when it's gone' attitude ya :P

Sorry

Sorry…just a simple word…but what a difference it would make to great deals of matters. A sorry in an argument will break down the wall of silence…a sorry can often avoid a lot of unnecessary conflicts… we say sorry sometimes even if we did not do any mistakes…simply because we step back and eat the humble pie…we do not want to lose a friendship…but sometimes even if it’s easier to say sorry..we refused to do..simply because we do not want to give a wrong message to the person…we hope that the person would get the message we are sending across…we are taking a risk there…will we lose him/ her by becoming the teacher that says the truth? But sometimes…our ego prevent us to apologise…the word simply can’t be uttered..yet other times, sorry was used so infrequent that it becomes an offensive thing to say…